Amazed..

When we walk through life there are experiences we build and there are experiences which build us. Sometimes we intend to feel what we want to feel and sometimes there are feelings we try to elude. But all the way we grow, we learn.

There are dreams which make us happy; there are nightmares which are scary. There are things we would love to do and there are deeds we never want to be a part of. There are tales we hold dear and there are stories we never want to hear. There are places we tour and enjoy; and there are sites dreaded even in thoughts. There are people we adore; there are people who adore us; there are people who do not adore us and there are people whom we do not adore. The list would go longer..for everything under the sun..there is a feeling held within of hearts. The feelings guide us through the maze of life, we learn to choose the paths. Sometimes what we intend seem not to happen that way. Sometimes pursuit of dreams lead to nightmares. And burdens grow, darkness deepens and grief seems to win.

So..what's the big deal? What's the point of this list? We already know all of this. No new info. And no innovative pointers. Then..?

Just to say..that the difference is made by what lies within. Weakened amidst despair, we often tend to forget that its just the matter of changing the thoughts. What's needed is to step back and choose the brighter path. Yeah..stepping backward in dark alleys is tough but not impossible. The only guide we shall have is our vision of the bright path. and that's what should matter alone. The feelings and thoughts we nurture build the world around us. All elements are the same, just the viewpoint differs from person to person. That's the reason why a mischievous 6 year old at school is a dear little naughty boy at home. When we choose the glad thoughts, the heart grows glad..and then it holds the power to gladden another heart. The mischievous little student hence can grow up into a sincere little angel with his Mother guiding him with love. a happy soul fills others around with gladness. Lets look within and discover the source of happiness we hold. Each one of us..lets walk upon the path of happiness. Its out there..we just need to put forward our happy feet.

This is not an article..just few words I wanted to share with everyone of you. Just wanted to talk to you all. Have a nice life..take care..and be happy! :)

Clouds floating by

There was the time when I sat by the window..

Smiling and waving at every passerby..

Those were hours of sky-high dreaming

Gazing at the clouds floating by.

Chirping little birds fascinated the heart

The seven blends of rainbow seemed divine

The eyes filled with wonder at each sunrise

The evenings had wishes for the lunar shine.

I ask myself as I cherish those moments

Why does so fast time fly..

The days bygone..calling me back

As I look up at the clouds floating by…

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Lets discuss..Resolutions!!

Resolutions..rings a bell..from somewhere down the memory lane..

1st of January..Year 1997..then again in the Year 1998..

"Moi gohin hom!!!" The first sentence on the ruled sheet pasted on the little 'Notice-area' right in front of my study table.

The words translated from Assamese into English mean something similar to "I will be more calm and reserved".

But what the little school-girl in me actually meant was "I will be less talkative..I will jump around a bit less..I will not keep chatting with everyone around when I am wide awake..at least I will be a bit less of a chatterbox!!!" The list went long. But this single(and really not simple!!) resolution was what I could never fullfil..till this date!!! Even today, I can make you wonder "How does this girl talk so breathlessly???"

No prizes for guessing the secret of my energetic..endless talks..my hard-work and perseverance since my childhood days..blah!blah!! Blah!! I have been a non-stop FM!!!

And then someday, quite unceremoniously, that resolution was dropped from my list of "OUGHT TO"s..As for now, I have stopped making resolutions for changing myself..Got the divine realization that AM THE BEST as I am!!!

So..2010 has not seen me making any hard-core promises to myself or anyone else.. I have begun my New Year Night at the Life Line Hospital.. attendant to a friend of mine..hmmm..was I sad? Nope..not at all..may be it was a grand start..to be able to stand by my friend when she needed me..(coincidentally even last year's new Year day I was at the same hospital..with another of my friends admitted..sometimes I wonder if that was God's way of saying you shall be blessed all throughout the year..)

But then..I do have a small little talk to myself now and then..on few wishes I nurture within my heart..not especially a Year-Plan kind-of..its kinda Life-Plan which I keep developing each day..adding and subtracting points and views as I walk through the path of life..

From the Year 2008 into January 2009..I did carry happy images in my heart but I also recall the deep shades of grief and miseries which had made my heart heavy at times..nothing at all that's personal,which I can label as "MINE"..but a lot that's "OURS"..the media images of the Mumbai attacks..burning through me at the thought of the how inhuman a human can turn out to be..the Assam blasts..the blood and insecurity all over India..This year too saw bloodsheds..the blasts killing innocents..injustice..regional divides turning violent..India is not shining..INDIA IS BURNING..everywhere there are tears..everything soaked in blood..it pains..it pains a lot somewhere deep within..

People are yet to realise the power they hold to bring in the positive change..This new year, I want to be the part of the change I want to see..may I succeed in taking at least a small step towards my own freedom from the bondage of a "comfortable and secured life"..somewhere within I feel the urge to break the bonds of the conventional 'so-called normal' lifestyle and go in search of FREEDOM..

The Dhanush..Chandrayaan..the NSG commandos..people rising up to ask for their rights..the ones waking up to help others rise..they make my eyes go moist..they add to my pride in MY PEOPLE..MY NATION..I wish to see that pride be more heightened..the feeling of responsibility grow deeper..and be a direct tool in that process..

No resolutions especially for 1st of January 2010..but lots of hope..to be able to take a step towards a better tomorrow..

May we all be blessed..

AWAKE..are WE???

The billboards read big and bright

"What does India mean to you?"

With the image of a tricoloured face

You soon find that's a new TV show!!

A chord gets struck somewhere

Why suddenly is India so dear???

And then the realization dawns

Its August..THE DAY is near!!

The saffron-white-green work wonders now..

They are on the desktops, mails and shirts..

SALES 40%..50%..upto 75%..

Independence Day is on the charts!!

Tiny flags on the sleeves and the pockets

Long debates on the past rises and dips..

Its as if the Indian within has awaken

After a series of senseless deep sleeps!

We Indians now need the bright headlines..

To remind the saga of winning back our destiny..

Of the salutations to the spirit of freedom..

The Tricoloured dream that was to be.

Lost in busy times,that moment of divine bliss

Forgotten verses of the united prayer for glory..

Caught in the webs of strategic plans and goals..

In this enlightened dawn..AWAKE…ARE WE???